My thoughts are scrambled.

I'm overwhelmed.

I'm ruining everything I care about.

I need to step back and breathe.

I need to realize I can't control everything, or everyone.

I need to just let things be.

I have to work on myself - where have I gone?

I feel like I've lost a piece of myself somewhere...

Didn't I used to be fun? And care-free?

Now I'm a wreck. A train wreck of emotion... and I'm sick of it...

Sick of myself.

Sick of looking at myself in the mirror every morning.

Sick of not being thinking before I say something and not thinking about the consequences.

I'm sick of this town.

I'm sick to my stomach.

My eyes are on fire and feel like I have 15,000 eyelashes under the lids.

I just need to focus.

Not think about what's going to be, or what has been done.

There's just what I have right now... that's all I've got.

I need to stop losing my fucking mind.

I'm so confused. Can't think, can't sleep, can't see, can't.can't.can't.

I'm sorry.