Time

Time is a fickle thing. It's there and it's gone. Where did all the time go when it took so long to come and leave. I just don't get it. Why does it seem like life is always coming and going. I wish I could view everything like God in one continuous moment. Infinitely.

I can't even think straight. Everything is all messed up right now and i'm anxious.

I need a life of my own. and hobbies and friends. I need to rely on myself and not others for happiness. I told myself I wouldn't let this happen but how do i move on when I left my life in toronto.

The life I came back to here was different. All my girl friends have moved on and I don' t know them anymore. Guys are more stable. They are also older. It's easier. I need school and life.

I'm just waiting again. I want to be back at Ryerson with Celeste, Lisa, Dan and Brandon.

I'm wanting once again what I always want. Other people to rely on. Ugh. Why am I so needy.